I just got my job-share teaching contract for next year in the mail.... which means....
Not only will I continue to teach first graders 3 days a week like I've been doing, which is what I absolutely LOVE ; it also means that in a few short weeks, summer vacation is over and school begins for my own boys.
Since we decided at the end of last year that the boys wouldn't be returning to the private school that they were at, we really need to nail down what the plan is going to be for next year. It's a much harder decision for me than Tony because I just "NEVER" thought they would ever go anywhere else. BVG was not only just their school, it's also where we go to church. The church that I've gone to for the last 30 years! I just "NEVER" dreamed that my kindergartner wouldn't graduate at 18 as a Senior with most of the same kids he graduated from Kindergarten with at 5, just like I did. I wanted that for them... and I'm sad that it's not going t be like that for them.
But... God has a sense of humor... a way of bringing you to a place where you never thought you'd be... just to show you how very little control you really have.
My 4 boys are so different... in so many ways... not the least of which is apparent with their needs for school. So, in our effort to do what is best for them individually...
Kyle wants to stay at BVG another year... so for now, we've agreed. (ahh, my baby... in Jr. HIGH... urggggg)
And although all three of our boys actually got into the new charter school that we've be praying they'd get into... we've decided that only our first and third grader will go.
But my fourth grader... daddy's little all-star... my little wonder boy... He "gets" to be home schooled.
cough, gasp... ^(*^(%*()_...
I 'always' said that "I would NEVER" do that... but; here I am ... eating that phrase; yet again.
I'm notorious for having to eat those words... (You'd think I'd learn, and stop using it!)
I said I would "NEVER" marry Tony.
I said I would "NEVER" live in Mo Town.
I said I would "NEVER" home-school!!!!
The year Kyle started school, AJ was in pre-school across town, and the 2 little ones were at 2 other places and I DISTINCTLY remember swearing (usually with lots of tears) that I would NEVER, ever agree to anything that committed me to going 4 different directions in the morning before work.
The list of things I said I'd NEVER do could go on forever--
But, here I am... and I'm praying that I'm doing what's best for each of them; because the truth of the matter is:
The older the boys get, the more I realize that life isn't about convenience or ease. For me or for them. The decisions we make for our kids shouldn't be about what 'we' want for them, but by what we know will be best for them... even if that means I have to do things I said I'd NEVER do.
AND... I hope that when my kids are deciding what old folks to put their father and I in when we're not-so-old, but very senile... I hope they NEVER forget how much I love them!!!
9 years ago